I have many blessings in my life, but my singing voice is not one of them. I've worked on it, a lot, over the years, but I am far from a great (or even good) singer. Yet, I feel the need, the compulsion, to sing my songs. When I sing, you hear more of me than I can ever let out in any other way. You often hear the expression "singing his heart out", and that is what you get with me.
I just spent some time reworking the vocals on "Hard Rockin'", the song I posted as a demo, last week. I kept trying to make it sound "good", and I hated every take. Finally, I sat back and thought about what I was doing.
The song is, obviously, autobiographical. It's all about the pain of my marriage finally coming to an end after Val and I had been together for 15 years (married for 13), and about how I finally decided to get beyond it. It's also an angry song. Even though I am, for the most part, past the hurt, I'm angry that my life didn't turn out the way I thought it would.
So, I did one more take, singing like I felt and not really worrying about making it sound "good".
I think I like it.
I don't know if anyone else will.
But, it gets across what I'm trying to convey, and that's what matters to me. Once Mark gets a decent drum part down, to replace my crude attempts, I will consider this one done and start to work on the next song.